It doesn’t make sense to call ourselves ugly, because we don’t really see...– dirty wings (via thatsgoldjerry)
You know what's kind of beautiful?
timorleste: In French, you don’t really say “I miss you.” You say “tu me manques,” which is closer to “you are missing from me.” I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you are essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.
I think the most rebellious thing you can do in this world is be exactly who you...– ~ Hannah Whalen One of the moments I love being wrong: when an acquaintance pleasantly surprises me by so deeply and concisely articulating one of my general philosophies about life.
Sleep is for the weak because the weak need it the most. [because they’re the ones not getting any.]
remappingmysoul: “Our knowledge has made us cynical; our cleverness, hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery, we need humanity. More than cleverness, we need kindness and gentleness.” Charlie Chaplin in “The Great Dictator” <3
That moment you bond with someone by talking about catching lunch meat and sandwich essentials in a Disney Lilo and Stitch online game as a child.
How To Make Love →
About seven years ago, all my friends my age got married. And about three years after that, they all started having babies, which set into motion the idea that eventually they’re gonna have to talk about sex to their kids. And that just freaks me out. I have cats—they were broken, but now they’re fixed—so I don’t have to worry about this. However, if I had the opportunity to suddenly be...
家家有本难念的经– - Chinese proverb Literally it means that every family has a bible that’s hard to read. It actually sums up the universal truth: that every family has a different set of dynamics. Every home and every family is unique within itself. We can’t run our families through a meat grinder...
Her belongings have begun to expand, creeping steadily towards the straightened pile of books on my desk, the stationary arranged by utility, the crisp folds of my bed. Her scuffed boots, her wrinkled shirts, her scattered belts surround her bed like an army, ready to shelter and protect her in her slumber. Her wall had become a statement, littered with candid moments with friends,...
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airedhiela: bowchikahonkhonk: airedhiela: manisdust: awaterfallsunset: tumblr: centered around cute girls with lots of selfies and occasional angsty posts about their lives Internet: full of ignorant, overly verbose and pretentious fools with lots of selfies and litters of angsty posts about their lives Your previous… ...
awaterfallsunset: tumblr: centered around cute girls with lots of selfies and occasional angsty posts about their lives Internet: full of ignorant, overly verbose and pretentious fools with lots of selfies and litters of angsty posts about their lives
You cannot go through life as a soloist.– Dance Studies: The Basics by Jo Butterworth
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known...– Elisabeth Kübler-Ross (via arpeggia)
The One Ingredient Necessary For Accepting... →
I can’t sleep [[MORE]]That’s just slightly melodramatic. I’m here cuddling with your hoodie pathetically. My recent success faded away and now I just feel inadequate. I wish I could just let go—forget everything and just feel. Feel all the things you want me to know, to believe. I want to let them wash over to and silence all the voices in my head that want to focus on...
I'm still here. Still here. Still here.
[[MORE]] In the absence of action, we are forced to rely on communication. ~ You’ve had this for your status on Skype for weeks already, J, but it’s a lie. You’re not still there. Sometimes I feel so alone, babe. Sometimes I feel so lonely and lost. Sometimes I am left leaving so unconvinced and so insecure. We’ve spent three anniversaries apart thus far, my love....
Details are what make things convincing. I wish you were convincing.
[[MORE]] [10/7/12 3:04:14 AM] Lorna Wu: .-. [10/7/12 3:04:25 AM] Lorna Wu: The worst thought is the one [10/7/12 3:04:28 AM] Lorna Wu: that my words [10/7/12 3:04:49 AM] Lorna Wu: are interchangeable with words of others. [10/7/12 3:04:50 AM] Lorna Wu: .-. [10/7/12 3:05:02 AM] Lorna Wu: If I wasn’t here to provide the words, [10/7/12 3:05:07 AM] Jon:...
[[MORE]] Today A posted a status about learning how to play Magic cards from M and it offended me. I rambled to D about her learning something useless instead of being more productive and working towards the goals she seemed to have earlier. I was upset but I stifled my sudden feelings and stepped out for some air. I need more air. A sense of melancholy came over me and I shoved it down for the...
23 Deep Questions I Decided to Answer
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
It would be more difficult for me to look into someone's eyes when (s)he is telling me how (s)he feels. Although telling someone how I feel may seem hard, the fact that I'm doing so means I made a choice to do so. It was not some coincidence. By that point, I have prepared myself emotionally and mentally to uphold my values of honesty and communication and chosen bravery. At that point, I would have to look into her/his eyes to gauge his/her reaction and to truly give a "fudge you" to my cowardly instincts. In the case that someone else is telling me how (s)he feels, it would be easier to give into fear when I'm uncertain of what (s)he will reveal.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
I honestly can't remember the last time I was really angry or the last time I was angry for that matter. My survival instinct is too good.
Side note: Even if I had some quality anger moments, it was probably at myself. I've probably stifled memories of anger towards others though.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
Undoubtably, I would call my mother. I would thank her and remind her that I loved her. Then I would wish her a happy and healthy life. I would apologize for letting her experience what it was like for a white-haired person to deliver a dark-haired person (Chinese expression, some of you will get this). I would ask her to please worry less and not to lose any sleep over this. Then I would stress that Lena loves her. I'd assert that life is beautiful and wonderful, and that she's part of the reason it is so.
Side note: dwai. I'm crying.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I would tell people. I'd rather I bear the bulk of the burden of their grief than to have them bear it after I die (in the case that I don't tell them first).
My remaining days would be spent in New York and Boston. I would spend the rest of days pursuing the memories I loved and the memories I wished to create. I'd take a nap with my SO so we could finally find out how it was like to sleep together and wake up in each other's arms. I'd ask my mom to teach me how to make something so I can tell make her dinner. I'd bake Christmas cookies and sing carols with my twin for the last time. I'd volunteer for a soup kitchen for the first time, FINALLY. I'd get over my stigma when it comes to hugs and I'd hug everyone unconditionally. I don't care if you're sweaty. I'd have a sleepover with Anthea, FINALLY. I'd make out with my SO in the rain. I'd dance naked in the rain. I'd give up on blogs and the internet. I'd give up on digital cameras and just use the film, the medium of my soul. I'd massage my dad for the last times. I'd run through sprinklers.
I'd also hug my mom when she breaks down and cries. I'd take her into my arms and pat her head until her sobs went away. I'd cry back when I can no longer hold it in. I'd hug my dad and ask him to give up cigarettes for one last time. I'd hug my SO and kiss him to heal the hurt of my leaving him in a month. I'd tell everyone how much I love them and how beautiful life was.
I would be afraid but then I'd shield off the fear with a smile, to reassure myself and to reassure the people I loved.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust is a kind of love. I'd choose trust. Love is wonderful in trust and agonizing in its absence.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
I'd save the dog. I have enough faith, however justified or not, in humanity to believe that my boss only said that under the assumption that a dog wasn't about to die.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
I'd rather be hurt by the one I love the most. At least then, I could move on. I rather lose love for one person than lose trust for others.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
I'd tell him that he was adorable and that I'm glad my best friend is already my SO. Then I'd look him in the eyes and tell him that I am too.
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
I wouldn't do it. He lived a great life and did everything right. He has left a legacy. I also sincerely doubt he'd want me to make such a sacrifice.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Yes, I am.
11. Does love = sex?
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
As of now, I don't have a passion. If I have a job, it's because I need to survive and I have a dream to support my parents eventually. I'd offer to help this colleague find another position but it would be insane of me to quit my job for him/her. At most, I'd help the family along and lend them a little money, depending on how desperate (s)he was.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
The last time was recently. I told J the topic of "probing into the inner workings of his mind" would now make me instantly physically uncomfortable.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
It would be harder to tell him I do not love him back. If I love him, I would glorify in my conclusion and the ability to tell him. If I didn't and had to tell him so (assuming it is because he asked me or felt he loved me), it would be heartbreaking. I'd rather be disappointed than to have to disappoint him.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
It would be hardest to give up on my motivations (ie my goals and values). I would have no reason to try. That would suck. My life would be an empty shell, completely devoid of meaning, undeniably worthless. I think disappointing my parents and/or not making the most out of life would be more terrible than losing my parents.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
I told my twin, my other half, my best friend that I love her and that she is a babe.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
No. I don't believe in regrets.
18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Yes because I know how to do it correctly, in theory.
19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
I would ask my grandmother if it was okay. Honestly she would probably insist I save the baby. She's had a full life. She's rich in that she has a great extended family who sees her weekly and takes care of her. She's lived a healthy life. She has a devoted husband. Her children are living well. If she died, it would be for new life and this baby would have more reason to appreciate life.
20. Are you old fashioned?
Yeah I am... More of me believe in sex after marriage than in the opposite. I believe in devotion to my friends and modesty in public. I believe in going on actual dates and falling in love before you make love. When it counts, I'm not so old-fashioned. I was extremely happy for Neil Patrick Harris when he married his partner and had children. I'm pro choice as well.
21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
I helped someone in calculus.
22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
I would choose true love with a guarantee of a broken heart. As least then, I would be having an experience and I would learn something. I appreciate masochism, I suppose.
23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
I would make it so my dad never started smoking.
24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Uh. This is a repeat question so it's invalid.
25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
This is also repeated.
airedhiela: Read More I love you, babe. I really do. Tumblr is a place to vent when you have to. It shouldn’t be a place for people to judge each other and assume they have the right to do so. We are all more than our philippics. Also <3 you make me so happy. Thank you for deciding not to let cowards like this get to you.
cameraobscuraa: Read More ;-; Sums it up pretty well.
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[[MORE]] A innocent google search in most contexts. When it came up as previous searches on my iPhone, David, who was studying with me, noticed it and stated that I was disrespectful to the professor or something along those lines (due to the fact that I was checking my mail and shopping on my phone at various points throughout my professor’s lecture). I honestly don’t remember his...
Watched “Batman Begins” for the first time. ALL THE FEELS. <3 But no, I didn’t appreciate that how the beginning scene kinda portrayed Asians as villainous and incompetent.
[[MORE]] In Sopio, there’s a card called Phoenix. I played this card game for the first time on Monday and this card intrigues me the most. The function of this card is simple. When a player puts it down, everyone’s hand and points pile is taken and reshuffled into the deck. In other words, when this card is played, everything that everyone has managed to attain or accomplish is...
Sleep deprivation is a great way to experience...
[[MORE]] I’m being a bit melodramatic but I had a terrible night/super early morning. Maybe a caffeine crash or something. Both J and I haven’t been getting sufficient amounts of sleep so we’re both a little on the edge today, I suppose. The first time I provoked him was when I asked him about the habits he was starting to form at NYU and whether he planned on visiting...
[[MORE]] You post things about regret and loneliness and passion. | “Do it with passion or not,” your post said. | “there are worse things than being alone,” your post said | “there’s nothing worse than too late,” your post said. | “I feel like such a burden to my friends,” you said. | I’m sick of this, A. I am beginning to...